Broken hearts aren't really broken.

Broken: verb: [broh-kun]
2. reduced to fragments; fragmented.
3. ruptured; torn; fractured.
4. not functioning properly; out of working order.

The term broken should not be applied to hearts when they are hurt. Hearts don't get broken, is something i've learned this past year. Hearts do get ripped out, smashed, squeezed, bummed-out, crushed, cast-down, and crummy. Hearts do not get broken in two. Although this is true, I sometimes wish it wasn't. This past year, I have had my heart ripped out, smashed, squeezed, bummed-out, crushed and cast-down so many times -- I wish he would have just broke it in the first place. How much less pain it would have been. Having a heart broken in two in the first place would be so much easier than having these little jabs at it for a whole year. My heart is covered in jabs, scars, and crummy pain from the little insinuations I have been placed with by my ex-boyfriend. Maybe you don't care -- but this is just a little information for your day -- Don't let someone crush your heart, squeeze the life out of it, or "bum it out". It is so much worse because if it isn't broken in two, you still feel for that person, you're still going to love them with all you have. This is called building a resistence. I have become numb to the pain that he had caused me. Maybe, just maybe, He stopped hurting me. (yeah, freaking, right) He never stopped, and he never will. He never will, because in my mind, I know that he will always have a piece of my heart. The other half that I need to actually move on. He's got his grimy, nasty, slimy hands all over my heart...and it isn't meant for him. He shouldnt' have it -- and I want it back. I need the other half, and for me to get it back I have to relive through the pain that he has caused and find closure. Maybe that's what everyone else would like to have when they go through a bad situation -- but I don't want it. I don't want it at all. I don't want to live through the pain of knowing he doesn't care, nor did he ever. My point to this rampage today is to keep your heart -- never give it all way -- not unless you marry this person, because giving it away means never getting it back unless you live through pain that it can bring.