However long it takes, I’m never giving up, No matter what; I love you this much.

Today is Mothers Day. Honestly, I am so proud of my Mom, and I love her so much.My entire/most of my family were sitting in Bob Evans eating breakfast. Me being me, I was listening to my 5 year old cousin talk to my other cousin. One thing he asked, and I swear, I never knew a 5 year old could make me think this hard, but he asked my cousin if she knew how to blow a bubble with gum, she said yes, he smiled, looked at his mom, and said "So does my Mommmy."He's five years old. Five years old and he already knows how proud he is of his Mom. I'm fifteen. Fifteen years old and i'm just realizing how much she means to me. Honestly, you could have told me 5 years ago that I would love my Mom, and I would have laughed at you. I never grew up with her, and she maybe came to 5/13 birthdays of mine. I would never have thought I would have ended up living with her, and depending on her. But I am. Honestly, I never thought of my life being this way.I went to the cemetary today. I talked to my grandma, man, i miss her. I was kneeling in the rain, infront of her, and I just couldnt help but cry. I never thought she would leave. I never thought she would go home, and leave me here. She was one of those grandma's where you thought she'd be around forever. She was the strongest, and is the strongest woman I know, and I love her so much. She always told me what to do, and always always always pointed me in the right direction. She gave me the strength to work towards having such a strong faith. She's the reason I am who I am today. If you would have told me, that 4 years ago and 38 days would have been the last time I talked to her, I would have never left her side. I would have never went to Myrtle Beach, and I never ever would have not said I love you. I hope she knows how much she means to me. I hope she knows how strong her love has made me. I hope she knows, me.